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It's raining outside...the sound deafens my peace...I'm messed up...really messed up again. Trying to carry on with my life is just another understatement...how do I move on, is another...??!behind this smile of mine…is a longing for affection...a desire that I know will never be fulfilled. off for a drive just now, i have no idea where i went for my mind was slipped away... reminisce all the way....
im so kusut right now... sigh... there was never an effort from .. to make me feel better.. i guess it is time to leave... for real...